iBakery.

I have always wanted to be a baker and share my business with my brother. But, my laziness of studying how to bake is increasing day by day. Strange eh? I want my bakery to be in a simple size. Not so big nor not so small! By the time I finish my studies and can become a baker, I'm pretty sure MacBook(s) are going to be cheap. Furthermore, Steve Jobs is dead.. So, I'd like a Mac laptop in my bakery for everyone to use. If my business with my brother is doing great, maybe 2 laptops should be placed in my bakery. Haha, perhaps I should name my bakery, iBakery. Oh my, what a big dream I have.
Whatever, as long as I don't give a damn and pray, I'll be cool. But if someone judge me by my photos or dream or blog, I'll 'haunt' them back
:-3

To smile.

Painting, drawing, dancing, play games with my loved friends, talk with my best friend, silly fight/jokes with my boyfriend have always been my thing when I'm stressed up or, can't find the solution of my problems. And now, here I am siting on an Ikea's light pink stool, typing with my hair still wet, my towel on top of my lap, my siting-position as if I'm flirting someone and I'm trying to figure out how to make my problems get out of my head as soon as possible. I feel bad for not telling anyone or people who "knew" about it, b'cause I can say what they heard is absolutely rumors. And I do know, that person told everyone b'cause he wants to win so badly but I guess he didn't realize I did give him chance to win. 

So, I'm going to paint now and smile. Deep in heart, I feel pity on them and at the same time, I think he thinks I'm suffering without his help and, I think thinking about them boys problems never worth my time. Happy holidays, x. 

Final Exam.

Before I sleep, I just want you all to know my exam starts the day after tomorrow. And so, wish me luck. Final exam this year is getting on my nerves, I aim for 5As and the rest could be Bs and Cs. Also, I want to maintain Mozart. The problem is now, I'm so scared, scared like thousands of Ghosts around me and "they" trying to eat me.
But, InsyaAllah I can do this, just wish me luck and pray for me. I don't want to be the the best, I don't want to be the worst, I just want to be good moreover with my final exam results. Thank you, wish you guys the same thing too. All the best :-)

So long, so empty.

There is someone I knew, he is now considered dead in my life. He won of something wrong and tell the whole universe that he proud to finally beat me. I won of something right and I don't tell anyone because it was supposed to be between me and him. I mean, that person fought with me, we had a big fight last time, and no, we do not talk anymore. I gave him chance to let him win b'cause fighting with him over some stupid immature rubbish reasons weren't worth it. He called himself a mature guy, but blame me over his break-up relationship, I don't think that is Matured, that is more like childish? It's not wrong to be immature, sometimes. I mean, we all know you won't look a jerk if you do not try hard to be one. You find things, you find reasons, you find rubbish just to make you win and I hope you know that was clearly your fault. 

One day, you'll know how it happened, why it happened, when it happened and all, you can blame me if you think you're an immature, but showing off to me that you are mature, is so lame. What's wrong of being immature? You called me bitch, you blame me of ridiculous things, you fought with me over some rubbish, it's fine if you don't ask me for forgiveness but don't bother to talk to me anymore. You don't know the true story, and it is not that I don't want to talk about it, it's just you were too emotional which made me mad until I can't even control it. So please, you should ask me why I did that if you think it's my fault. I know this happened few months back, but, you should at least realize your fault so that you won't do it again to some other people like me.